Thursday, May 16, 2013

Sunday, May 12 - Clinic, Call, Church and the Caribbean!


(Written over the weekend, late to be published.)

Another week!

This past week seemed rather slow as most of the compound was gone this week.

Saturday, I was on call and the only doctor on the compound - Everybody else was either in another city at least two hours away, or hiking to waterfalls!  

The OB doctor has been gone for a few days and without his surgical backup we have been turning patients away who are not of lowest risk.  There was one patient that another doctor sent to a nearby public hospital because she was a G1 (first pregnancy) and only 4 centimeters dilated.  The next day, that same hospital sent us back a G1, 14 year old (high risk) at 9 cm (imminent delivery!) whose water had been broke for over 24 hours (high risk of infection!)  Didn't really seem like a fair trade!  But, she matured fast from a pregnant kid at 14 to become a mature mother who would fight through pain to do what needed to be done for her child.  She delivered great, and also tolerated an unblocked MEU (manual exam of the uterus) - my whole hand and part of my arm in her uterus pulling off the placenta and membranes from the uterus) as the cord separated from the placenta.  She had no extensive bleeding, which I'm thankful for, and she was feeling well the morning after.  In another week when the baby has a follow up appointment, we'll see if her name is Marta!  :)

The Pediatrician has been gone for several days now, and I had a kid with fantastic croup.  His seal bark cough was perfect!  If only I had learned the word for seal in Spanish... (foca, but it doesn't translate well to a community unfamiliar with the bark of the creatures.)  This kid was supposed to be the 8th patient on my
schedule, but thankfully the nurses had the insight to let me know he was having difficulty breathing.  I asked for nebulized epinephrine and was met with blank stares.  Even a tour through the pharmacy only yielded the response, "No hay."  "There isn't any."  But there had to be.  What else could I do.  I couldn't effectively humidify oxygen, steroids likely wouldn't help much, and then kid was only 1 year old and couldn't move much air let alone breathe well.  I did give him dexamethasone and started him on nebs while I searched the pharmacy.  Then, I called the Pediatrician out of town and she said the epi was
now kept in the refrigerator in the pharmacy!  Phew!  He had minimal relief with the first one, but after the second the child was able to breath enough to rest.  If you know what the disease is like, can you imagine
a parent watching their kid struggle for A WEEK to breathe before bringing them to the doctor?  I can't imagine the anguish of seeing a child hurt AND knowing I couldn't afford to help them.  I'm so thankful they came when they did.  The kid was exhausted.  He still had a little cough this morning, but did well overnight, which is when the worst of the symptoms usually occur, so I was able to let them go home.  He
is the cutest little thing with curly black hair.  But, he hates me because I've put masks of nebulized medicine on his face and made him get the steroid shot.  At least by the time he left he felt well enough to smile and giggle!  In follow up he was still barking when stressed (ie seeing me) but as long as he was calm he looked better!  Even when he was crying at the sight of me, he still maintained his sats!

Interesting that he was put into my clinic schedule instead of into the ER.  Also on my clinic schedule was a man with a dog bite.  The dog nearly bit off the tip of his finger!  It was the first meeting between a puppy and a bigger dog owned by one of the missionaries.  The big dog started to attack the puppy, so the gardener intervened, and the puppy ended up biting him.  It was deep, but thankfully no bone or ligaments were injured or visible.  Being that the dog could be watched easily, no rabies shots were given, but we did provide tetanus and a deep cleaning of the finger!

I would classify those both as emergencies, but then some of the ones I get at night and on the weekends, make me think life here is not so different than in the states. On a night call I came in to see a 19 year old wearing only shorts.  He looked coy.  He thought he could ask me a question for every one I asked him.  "How is your chest pain?"  "It is gone.  Are you 29?"  "No, I'm older than that.  On a scale of
0-10, how bad was your chest pain." "It's not bad.  Do you have children?"  "No.  Do you have children?"  "Yes.  One.  One year old."  It took me a few questions before I caught onto his game and stopped playing.  He thought he would show off by naming several large cities on the east coast he had visited.  He didn't understand my questions in English well enough to answer appropriately, although it was
hilarious to hear him try.  So, I resorted to asking him questions in Spanish, he tried to answer in English, and by the end, he asked for a date.  He had no chest pain and his symptoms had resolved completely.  His symptoms were that of a panic attack.  I wonder how the visit would have been different if any of the men on the compound had been on call that night...?  A woman was waiting with him.  Turns out she was the girlfriend/mother of his child.  Needless to say, their relationship is struggling.

On Saturday I had another ER patient, a man with rectal pain.  Was this really an emergency, probably not, but with the amount of stool in the vault, the man really could have had some serious complications if he had remained this way until Monday!  The nurse misinterpreted the rectal pain as no stool and no urination, but his prostate was fine, he was merely, FOS.  Full of sh%$.  Literally.  If I had actually practiced disimpaction in medical school I might have given it a try, but with how effective his soap suds enema was, there was no reason.  After getting cleaned out, he came back to the bed weak, sweating through his shirt and pale.  No chest pain, no difficulty breathing, just weak and sweaty.  I look about that sweaty all the time, but this man should be used to the heat.  And he was dry before.  I worried about his heart, and his sugar.  After 4 errors on the glucometer, which could potentially mean a sugar too high or too low, or the machine isn't working...we checked the nurses blood sugar, which was normal, and then were able to get the patients.  131.  That wasn't the problem.  I'll blame the good ol' vasovagal response.  By the time we
checked orthostatics and got the sugar, he was feeling much better and ready to go home.

The social system setup is getting better for me.  There is a family who moved into the hotel/guest housing last week - a young resident doctor, his wife and their two adorable boys.  It is a small world because I remember hosting him and interviewing him for our residency program!  We have chatted together, had dinner, and went to a small shop together.  This weekend, an ER resident and his wife arrived for a week.  Within their first 24 hours, they had been to the beach twice!  So, on the second trip I invited myself!!!

A word about the shop we went to visit: In the past, women of this community did nothing to support
themselves, and if they were single parents, it was even worse.  Some of the missionaries have taught some women how to knit/crochet (I don't know the difference, sorry) and now they have a little consignment type store where they sell dresses, vests, skirts, doilies, purses and other crafts.  It is nice that these women have products that they can not only take pride in, but also make a living from and be able to provide for their families!

As of Saturday I still had yet to put my toes in the ocean.  I was on call and couldn't really leave, but thankfully, Sunday, there was blue sky again!  The ER resident, his wife and I went down to the beach Sunday afternoon, and then shortly thereafter another missionary family came as well.  It was fun to lounge in the waves and chat with new friends.

On Sunday morning I went to a local church.  The Consejeria (Counselor/Chaplain) from the hospital was there, as were several of the other missionaries.  It was Mother's Day, so the kids sang several songs, and I was reminded how much Spanish I have to learn as I tried to listen intently to get something out of the message.  I would have been better off following the kids to make a Mother's Day Card!  The songs were led by a local Honduran, and the pastor was also a local Honduran.  The church was almost entirely women and children.  There was only one young man in addition to the pastor!

On Tuesday I plan on going to the garbage dump to see what life is like there for the families who live there!  Some even have to pay rent to live at the dump.  Crazy.  I can only imagine what I'll see after seeing dumps in Mexico and Africa...

Does anybody have any brilliant easy meal ideas?  I'm going shopping and can get most ingredients, just need some inspiration of what to buy and ideas of what to make!  Thanks!!

Sunday, May 5, 2013

Honduras, Week 1, In Review.


I was asked by Dr. Todd, coordinator of the International Family Medicine Fellowship to share some of my thoughts and impressions.  Here is an edited version of that synopsis of my time here so far.  He wanted to know about my welcome, housing, the hospital, the spiritual flavor of things…

But before I begin, I must interrupt myself to say, I saw blue sky today!  It was the first time all week!  Every day has been gray.  We have had two amazing thunder, lightning and pouring rain storms - rain like I've only seen around tornado and hurricane season!  The rain storms lowered the temperature, and after having two of the hottest days of the year, the last few days have been so comfortable.  Warm, but with a welcomed breeze. 

Also...before I begin…  I am in a guest house.  I have a full kitchen and then three beds in a bedroom.  The bathroom and shower is attached, as is a huge walk in closet.  The air conditioner is in the kitchen, under a kitchen counter.  I ran it for a few hours the other day, but turned it off and moved the standing fan to directed right at my face, and slept better that way than with the AC on.  Last night, it was so fresh, I even turned off the fan for a few hours and slept comfortably, on top of a sheet, with no sheet or cover over me.   The AC is a daily fee for the entire time I am here, take it or leave it.  I am honored to have the only room in guest housing with an AC, and will use it responsibly, but will need to rearrange some things if it is to be of any benefit.  I think I will be able to move the couch from the kitchen into the bedroom, and one of the single beds from the bedroom to the kitchen.  That way I'll be able to sleep in the room with the AC if needed, and with just a fan in the bedroom if not needed.  It doubles the price of my housing, but when I thought of it in terms of hours moonlighting, I thought, what the heck, I'll splurge for being comfortable and sleeping well when needed.

Ok...now back to the email I prepared about my first week...

 I have been mulling over what to say since I arrived.  I want to be honest, and yet there was so much more than what was first apparent on the surface of things...(I'll get more into that in a moment.)

You had requested my musings about hospital, missionary personnel, how I was received, where I am living in relation to hospital, the spiritual "climate" at the hospital among patients, staff, missionaries, chaplains, and what types of things we are caring for in the hospital, etc.

My musings about the hospital were what made me hesitate to send an email.  It is so very different from Galmi, Niger and Kapsowar, Kenya, for that matter.  There is clinic only on Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays, and the typical day starts at about 8 am, and lasts until about 1 or 2 pm.  I am on call two days per week.  The weekends and Tuesday and Thursday calls are 24 hours, from 7 am till 7 am the next day, and the M/W/F call is whomever comes in after clinic hours (so anytime between 11-2 depending on provider), until 7 am.  Whomever I admit from clinic or on call, I see until they go home.  I was on call twice so far.  On my first call, Wednesday, also my first day of clinic, I saw 4 patients in clinic (it was the equivalent of labor day and the town buses weren't running, and everything else was closed/in party mood) so everyone had light numbers.  I will give a brief synopsis of my patients later.  I had three patients during "call."  The first was at about 8 pm, the second 11 pm, and the third 2 am.  It made for minimal sleep, but nothing was too challenging.  

ER 1 - was an 8 year old boy who was on a trampoline and fell on his brother - patient's ribs vs. brother's knee and he has some pain with deep inspiration.  There was no obvious flail chest, breath sounds were equal bilaterally and XRay wouldn't change my management (but would cost the family, and the hospital -the tech would have to be paid for his travel time, and time to do the XR.)  I gave ibuprofen for pain control, and didn't think we had incentive spirometers, so gave instructions on taking deep breaths 10 at a time, once an hour while awake.  I later saw some incentive spirometers, but they are reserved for and reused by post-op patients.

ER 2 - was a 36 year old woman with "mountains" of vomiting.  No diarrhea, no fever.  I gave her an IM shot of promethazine, a liter of fluids, and after 500 ml she had no more nausea, no vomiting and was no longer dizzy.  I wrote out my discharge instructions and said she could go home after completing the liter of fluids.  Gave instructions to maintain po hydration, gave some po promethazine and went to bed.  I was surprised to still see her laying in her bed when I returned to see patient number three.  Transportation can be a challenge, and she was just resting till a more appropriate hour.  By the time I arrived at 7 am for rounds, she was gone.

ER 3 - was an 18 month old with diarrhea and vomiting.  Again...mountains.  The family could not quantify the number of oz of fluids she had drank that day, could not tell me the number of wet diapers, or the number of episodes of diarrhea.  (Similar to Africa most kids don't wear diapers, but unlike Africa, diapers are used for big, important events and trips, like going to the doctor!)  I asked if the baby had tears when she cried, and the family was shocked at the question.   "No," they answer emphatically, as if tears were a bad thing, and not a good indication of adequate hydration.  So,  I have an afebrile kid whom I have watched thirstily gulp down 6 oz of fluids, and proceed to return 5 minutes later.  She has a great cap refill, but is tachycardic.  I admitted her for the remaining few hours of the morning for maintenance hydration after her bolus, and by my morning rounds, she had no further vomiting or diarrhea and was drinking and eating well.

Yesterday, Saturday, I was on call and had only one patient, at about 11 am.  He was a sixty year old gentleman who had just returned from La Ceiba where he had an AKA done four days prior.  He was told he had a urinary infection and told to follow up with us.  No antibiotics were given for the patient to take at home, and I'm not sure what was done at the hospital.  He did have an ultrasound report showing evidence of grade 1 prostatic herypertrophy.  He had an infected urine, CVA tenderness, and so I treated him for that.  His diabetes was remarkably well controlled on 1000 mg metformin BID so I refilled that, his incision looked fantastic, and I gave the family supplies to keep it clean and dressed.  I also encouraged him to accept the diagnosis of hypertension and take medication for it - he started on the day I saw him, and his BP was 190/90.  All in all he was very pleasant, as was the family.  I hate to think that a BKA would have been sufficient, but he waited until the surgeon at our hospital was gone, so he had to go into La Ceiba, and there they prefer to do the surgery that will not need to be revised - an AKA.  (BKA is a below the knee amputation, and AKA is an above the knee amputation, for those of you who prefer I explain my medical terms and use reference ranges!) :)  I'm just thankful you care to read what I write, so I'll do my part to explain what I can when I remember!) 

The clinic visits are scheduled by computer, and after completing a clinic visit, you put the diagnosis in the computer and prescribe medications (and the computer program shows the up to date tally of available meds and how many are available.  You search first by the drug you want, and if none is available, you can search by class, and see what a good substitute might be.  There is also a shelf of outdated medications, which aren't in the computer, but can be prescribed, and distributed for free.  My favorite thus far on the expired shelf is keflex.  I use it all the time!

There is one OB doctor, and he is on what nears perma-call.  Only one FM doc also does OB, and those are the OB doctor's only nights off call.  I was able to deliver my first patient on Wednesday, and have offered to care for all the laboring patients, and do a few C-Sections with him before taking over all C- Sectiona and the OB service as long as he is willing to be on call if I need him.  No other patients have come in in the past 4 days.  I am also seeing a good number of prenatal care patients in clinic, and I'd guess there are at least 20 patients daily that are getting routine prenatal care and plan to deliver at the hospital.  This number is growing all the time.

So...a word more about my hesitancy to report the schedule.  It just seems so meager compared to Galmi.  On the other hand, I think it will be a tremendous blessing.  There are other things to be done on Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday and Sunday.  Thursday night is a praise and fellowship night, with a potluck.  Sunday morning there is bible study, and then a church service to follow - it is typically a sermon downloaded from the states, with live praise music inserted before and after, and today there was a discussion about how to practically apply it to our lives.

On Tuesdays and Saturdays one of the missionaries goes down to the garbage dump in La Ceiba.  People live there.  And, the folks with electricity, literally have to pay rent to live at the garbage dump.  The missionary who goes talks with families, takes food, and offers basic medical services (as a mom without any medical training would.)  I look forward to going on this excursion, but I am on call both Tuesday and Saturday this week.  Some of the missionaries teach a seminary-type class to local pastors on Saturdays (and another day).  There is also a Children's Home at the base of the hospital, and there are ample opportunities to play and love those kids.  And, in reality I am just learning what goes on day by day.

The other hesitation was that arriving here was such a stark difference from arriving at Galmi.  Arriving at Galmi everyone knew your plane was landing and came to meet you.  You saw a sea of stranger's faces who would then invite you to dinner and become friends quickly though shared time and meals.  Instead of having a smattering of lunches and dinners to get to know everyone on the compound in Galmi, I have had a dinner with Joel's family, and one with Judy, so that has been fine, just different.

I was hesitant to discuss the schedule because I feel as if it is so light on the work.  With essentially just three half day clinics per week and two calls per week.  But, I remember back to what "Belle" said at a First Wednesday meeting about wanting her time as a medical missionary to be 50% medical, and 50% missional.  That would definitely be possible here.  It seems as if a lot of the families thrive by using that as family time.  For me, I am thinking about what it could look like.  Perhaps kid-sitting so parents can go to town or have a date night.  Spend time at the children's home.  Helping with the OB call.  Improving my Spanish.  Reading my bible.  At this point, although I feel as if the schedule is light, I am excited to embrace it as a blessing and be a blessing.  (And next week I'll be working 5 of 7 days so we'll see if I still think the same!)  :)  (Belle is a fictional name from a Disney movie to represent a phenomenal young surgeon missionary who has blessed Via Christi by having a relationship with us, and coming to share her story at a monthly missions meeting we have.  She is in a country that is closed to missionaries, but is involved in healing and missions through her practice of medicine.)

I was welcomed at the airport by Judy, the pediatrician doing a Samaritan's Purse two year post residency fellowship.  We threw my bags in the extended cab of her truck, and then went to the grocery store.  (I packed trunks to Niger, but I highly recommend roller suitcases for Honduras, or for travelling alone.  I was able to attach my carry-on roller suitcase onto my large checked bag, and roll them together, and my other roller bag separately, and didn't have to pay for anyone to help me with luggage or have any hassle or haggle!  The luggage requirements are different for Latin America vs. Africa, and only one checked bag is allowed.  I had offered to bring lots of stuff for the missionaries and friends of the hospital, and then also chocolates and small gifts for the missionaries, so I was happy to know that the extra 50 lb bag would only be a $40 charge which seemed more than fair.  I was charged for luggage again, about another $40 USD to get on the small plane from San Pedro Sula to La Ceiba, but I don't know if I had had only the allowable luggage if there would have been a charge.)  At the grocery store we walked aisle by aisle and Judy pointed out what to get here and now, what could be gotten later or closer, helped point out the importance of expiration dates, the use of vinegar to clean fruits and vegetables, etc.  She even brought a cooler for me to put in frozen foods, meats, cheeses and fruits.  She showed me to my room, helped me up with my bags, and then I was left to settle in for the night.  I had plenty of groceries and was able to make myself a suitable dinner!

The next day, Tuesday (a day without clinic...), Joel, the FM doctor and my host stopped by to say he was on call the night before, and had patients at odd times to prevent him from stopping by.  He said he'd be back in the afternoon and he'd give me a tour of the hospital.  I saw the exam rooms - each of which has a desk with the computer for the schedule and prescribing as well as internet, the exam table, a few chairs, a sink, and and AC!  There is a door to the front and back, and your patient could be waiting on either side.  The paper chart has the chief complaint and vital signs filled out, and then there is room for exam, assessment and plan, as well as follow up instructions.  After being seen, each patient goes to the Consejeria, or translated, Counselor.  This is a visit with a chaplain, who prays with the patient.  The last stop before paying the bill is the pharmacy.

The story of one patient was shared at Praise and Fellowship this past week - an alcoholic man came to the ER and accepted Jesus.  He sobered up during his hospital stay, but his commitment remained.  He got information on a local church and has the support of his family.  They said that story is not uncommon and that the consejeria's role is indispensable.  The Consejeria is a mandatory stop for all patients, and if the pharmacist sees the patient skipped that step, they are sent back!

After the tour, I was again left to myself.  I had learned to use the short wave radio, so could have communicated with Joel or Judy, but was happy to have a low key time to get settled in, send some emails, relax and stay in front of a fan!

The short wave radio is an interesting thing.  It is a heavy walky-talky shaped contraption, and the hospital main call station is 146.585.  You start by giving someone's call letters, for example, if I was going to call Judy, I would press the talk button and say, "HR3JEB (her initials are JEB) this is HR3MEH (my initials) or HR3HOT (the code for the hotel/guest housing), Judy, do you copy?"  Then she would reply, "quinientos."  That means that we change the station to 500, or 146.500, and there we can have a semi-private conversation.  The general radio can be used from 7 am till 9 pm, and there is a separate call station for use overnight so as to not wake everyone up with the ER calls.  At the end of your conversation you say "QSY, 585" which I think means, over and out, and then you switch back to the main station, 146.585.

Wednesday was clinic and call, and a dinner with Joel and his wife and three children.  His wife works with an organization called Honduras al Mundo - Honduras to the World, which encourages Hondurans to recognize how much they've been blessed and helps disciple them to go abroad and serve others instead of just allowing and expecting missionaries to come and serve them.  One of their group has gone and has possibly even met/worked with "Belle."  I was able to share some dark chocolate covered pomegranate candies, which were a big hit!

Thursday, I rounded on and dismissed my ob patient, her son (it is very rare to do circumcisions here) and the other 18 month old I had admitted.  Judy, Jamie - a missionary whose husband works at the bilingual school, and I went into La Ceiba.  Our first stop was immigration.  Every 90 days the missionaries who aren't residents have to take a Visa trip and be gone for at least two days to be allowed back into the country.  Judy was leaving two weeks after her Visa was to expire, and was able to get that adjusted, after hours of waiting.  During that time I had a wonderful chat and opportunity to get to know Jamie, and nurse by training, but unable to work in the hospital because she doesn't speak Spanish, so she is working on language study now.  

After paying the fees, and returning to immigration again, we were then off to run errands.  An ACE hardware that was more like a Walmart was a stop, and then the fruit market downtown to get mangoes, bananas, cucumbers, tomatoes, potatoes, beans, melons, onions, garlic, cabbage, etc.  Then to a grocery store, where I bought some ground hamburger and was thankful not to have to grind it myself, like in Niger!  I found a little tortilla press, in case I get really ambitious at a variety store on our way out of town.  We were so busy all day, we forgot to eat, but a fellowship potluck was waiting when we got back!  Since we got back as the potluck was starting, I took a bag of York Peppermint Patties, and they were gone even before I went around the table!  Good choice!

I was starting to feel super tired from being post call, the heat, not eating, and having a GI bug.  But, was able to sleep almost 11 hours after the praise and fellowship, and was ready for Friday!  I'm now on day 3 of antibiotics and feeling much better.  I was only cold and clammy once, only orthostatic once and my blood pressure never got below 105 systolic, so I'm calling that a win for my self-doctoring skills!!!  :)

Yesterday (Saturday) I stuck around since I was on call, and then had a rice wrapper dinner with Judy and Joel's families.  The rice sheets were found in San Pedro Sula, and you stick them in hot water, and they turn into a clear -type wrapper that we filled with lettuce, cilantro, carrots, cucumber, peppers, avocado and then wrapped up like an egg roll and dipped in teriyaki, soy or a peanut sauce!  It was a beautiful (I wish I had taken a picture.  The greens, oranges, yellows, etc were so vivid!  We'll have to do it again, if for nothing else, a picture!) and tasty meal!  Then, I had the best chocolate chip cookie I've ever had! and also so watermelon for dessert, before cleaning up the kitchen and dishes, and then watching Silver Linings Playbook.  (They have a stall at the mall in La Ceiba where you can buy 3 DVDs for 100 lempiras, or $5.  They are often available in Honduras before they are available at Red Box, and I would venture to say, even while they are still in theaters, in some cases!

This morning there was a bible study walking through the bible, and they are currently at the beginning of Isaiah, and then church followed.  

I did laundry and hung up one shirt before being attacked by fire ants, and decided to forgo the air/line drying for the electric dryer until those ants could be killed.  My ankles still sting and burn!

In terms of missionary personnel - 

Vance is the OB doctor, and has brought up the numbers over the last about 2 years that he has been around.  He has a protocol sheet he printed out for me.  Essentially q 6 week visits until about 24-28 weeks, then q 4 weeks until the q 2 week visits start at 34 weeks.  There is an initial size/dates ultrasound, and then one for anatomy between 24-28 weeks.  Initial labs include RPR, HIV, hct and blood group.  Glucose screening was done, but only rarely were they elevated, and never was a case of gestational diabetes found over the months the testing was going on!  He also works on a farm.  On the OB patient I delivered, I put in my first independent pudendal block, which helped greatly in my second degree repair.  She was a G1 (first time pregnant) and her perineum was sooo tight.  I was about to do an episiotomy, but was giving the block time to work and she was ready!

Joel is a FM doc who worked with went to residency with Kyle Jones whom I met at Kapsowar in Kenya!  He does OB and general medicine.  He has three beautiful children.  He does some pastoral teaching.

Mark is a FM medicine doc who prefers not to do OB.  He also helps coordinate/stock/run the pharmacy.  I brought out several bible study books in Spanish for him, and he also helps with pastoral teaching.

Judy is a pediatrician doing the Samaritan's Purse Post Residency Fellowship.  She has been a tremendous blessing for me thus far in terms of pick up, shopping trips to La Ceiba, dinner and companionship!  She also helps out with the pharmacy.

Abby is an ER doctor who has been taught to do/invited to do/willing to do... a lot of primary care!  Including some OB and pap smears!  :)  Her husband is a pilot and would like to be able to build a runway and perhaps help improve access to health care in areas there are no roads.

There was another doctor who has gone to London to get an MPH, and the surgeon is in the states right now, but will be back before I leave.

Dave is an IT wizard. 
Another family works in the shop and fixes EVERYTHING including missionary cars!
A couple families teach at the bilingual school.
One lady organizes the trips to the dump, arranges guest housing, etc.
I'm sure I'm forgetting some significant folks, but, I still have a lot to learn.

How I was received is definitely different than Niger, but I got picked up from the airport, shopped, settled in, got a tour, and on the fourth day I was able to meet most people at the fellowship night.  It was different, but it was fine.

There was a medical staff meeting on Wednesday, and every week.  It was good to be there.  One discussion that came up was how to assign back up to visiting doctors.  If the "host" is required to be backup, it was mentioned that that would be a deterrent to the doctor's wanting to host.  I was not afraid to speak up and say, we know how to do most things medically, but it would be nice to at least have a voice on the end of the radio or phone to be able to discuss procedural things or have some advice from a longer term expert.  It was decided that I could call Joel if I needed anything medically or Vance for OB.  I may not need it, it is just really nice to know who you can call when you get in over your head.  And...in completely new surroundings, I think that is fair!

I live in guest housing.  There is no one else here right now.  There are some rooms with kitchens, some are more like hotel rooms with just beds and access to the large main floor kitchen.  I am the lowest housing on the hill and therefore closest to the hospital.  There used to be a way to walk across about a three story valley, but a group who had been visiting were on it, each leaned a different direction to be in a picture, and it swung, plunging all of them off the foot-wide pathway and into the ravine.  There were multiple injuries and even some deaths.  That has been dismantled, but will probably be replaced with a more sturdy structure within the next year or so.  Therefore, in order to get to the hospital I walk down the hill, and then up the hill.  It takes less than 5 minutes from my place.  Most of the longer-termers drive their trucks or motorcycles to the hospital.

The spiritual climate among the missionaries is great, deep even.  Bible study this morning was led by two young ladies, probably in their early twenties, and they had great insights in addition to the material covered.  The church service was missionaries and a few boys from the children's home, but no staff, and the same was true for Praise and Fellowship on Thursday night.  Some people go into the community for church services, but I think they are in the minority.  

I have seen some OB patients and some women's health patients.  When asking one teenager who had pelvic pain and discharge if she was sexually active, she said, oh, no, I am a Christian.  
To another 16 year old with similar complains, I asked her sister to give us a minute alone, and she said that she had been sexually active with two partners, and no mention of her religious beliefs, just for example.  All patients know the order of the visit - get vitals done and chief complaint registered, then see the doctor, then see the chaplain, then to the pharmacy, then pay the bill.  

I started out seeing my own patients right off the bat, right from the start without shadowing anybody, so I don't know how involved the missionaries are in their own exam rooms...

The nursing staff has been great.  When they get on the radio to tell me about patients, they speak slowly and give me a good synopsis of why the patient is there and what the vitals are.  They have been great at starting IVs and are quite knowledgeable of what is in the pharmacy.  

So far I've seen about 10 clinic patients, 4 in the ER, and had 3 inpatients (including mom, baby, and kiddo admitted from the ER).

My clinic patients have been routine - coughs and colds, vaginal pain and discharge, multiple pretty severe UTIs with CVA tenderness and horrible looking UAs, and quite a bit of prenatal care.

One challenge is being a hallway and a half away from the OB doctor, making it challenging to share the ultrasound and copy the patient's prenatal records efficiently.

The most intriguing patient I saw in clinic was a 40 year old who could never get pregnant, so she had adopted children.  Her first period was at the age of 12 and she was still menstruating regularly (filling in some useful info for thinking about a diagnosis of breast cancer).  Starting the night prior to the visit she began having a discharge from her nipple.  On exam, I could feel a 4x5 cm mass at the 6 o'clock position of her breast, and squeezing this mass produced a very thick serosanguinous discharge.  It was hemoccult positive.  (Not good if thinking about breast cancer.)  We did a sono and it appeared to be a cystic mass measuring 2 x 2 cm, and relatively well defined (finally some good news decreasing the liklihood of breast cancer).  I sent her to La Ceiba for a mammogram, and instructed her to come back with the XRays, and report the following week.  If the mammogram is normal, we will do an ultrasound guided drainage of the cyst.  If it is suspicious, then she will stay and receive definitive treatment. 

That is all for now!
I'm doing well!
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I'm Back!!!

I couldn't keep writing in Niger, knowing that I was going to get sent home.  I also wasn't working much, and it was so much harder to write about my health, than that of my patients.  It was a very personal and special time that I am forever grateful for, I just couldn't share it so publicly.

But, because my trip to Niger was cut short, I was given the opportunity to spend a few months in Honduras to finish up my fellowship!

Friday, September 21, 2012

9/21/12


Sorry for the long delay, again.   There were some internet outages which prevented me posting what I had written 10 days before, but that is not all.

 

I had been happy to be back at work, and busy.  We have been admitting like crazy, and discharging nearly as many to keep our  beds with no more than 2 kids each, sometimes 3.

 

I said had as I took another few days to invest my time in fluid intake and SRO.  And, thankfully have recovered with only oral hydration and although not yet up to par, am doing much better after only a day and a half.  I can say that I had been drinking a ton of water, but it seemed like a lot more before I calculated it out.  Based on some calculations, my insensible water losses are near 5 L per day based on the temperature here, and my maintenance fluid requirements would also be somewhere between 5 and 6 L per day.  I'm sure maintenance fluids take into account some sensible losses, just probably not those in Africa.  Regardless, my goal today has been 5- 6 L over the period of 8 am to 8 pm, and it is much harder and much more of a chore than I had thought.  In retrospect I can identify several times of dehydration especially in Midwest summers, but also in West Virginia.  And...based on urine output, I'm pretty sure I have been chronically dehydrated for most of my medical years!  (Still can't believe how time consuming and interrupting it is to have a normal urine output!)

 

I read an article by the WHO (World Health Organization) to try to come up with a more accurate and adequate goal to set for myself.  It immediately talked about the ill effects of dehydration, and for some reason that annoyed me.  I wanted the calculation, darn it!  But, as I read through, a lot of things made sense!  These calculations are based on % weight loss, assuming that weight is usually pretty steady and the losses therefore can be attributed to water loss…

  • Fluid loss of 1% of body weight - thirst and impaired thermoregulation
  • 2% - more thirst and lack of appetite
  • 3% - dry mouth
  • 4% - 20-30% decrement in work capacity
  • 5% - difficulty concentrating, sleepiness and headache
  • 6% - numbness and tingling of the extremities
  • 7% - collapse
  • 10% - life threatening

I had made it up to the 6% milestone yesterday, and was closer to 7% the time before, when I received IV fluids.  My % loss since arriving in Africa is closer to 9%, but that is only mostly dehydration and partly not eating for a couple of weeks (which I was relieved to see occurs at 2% dehydration!)

 

I just had an interesting conversation with a lady I respect, trust and admire exceedingly, and only in a few weeks time.  I can respect and admire people easily enough, although with time that usually gives way to being real.  Not that it is lost, it is just transformed into something that looks less like a pedestal and more like a hug.  Trust on the other hand is another thing.  I can trust others easily, insofar as I don't have to trust them with myself - my thoughts, feelings, health, etc.  I have, in a sense, been forced into all of these.  And surprisingly, even thankfully.  Anyway, we were chatting and she said that relationships here are kinda on fast forward.  In the states, when you move into a neighborhood, you may be there for 5-10 years, and you have time to meet the neighbors and build relationships.  On the other hand, there is a grocery store so close, there is little need for you to run over to the neighbors for any little thing.  Here...we live closely, and everybody knows what is going on with everybody!  You rely on your neighbors for so much.  And...people are here for varying lengths of time - if you were to wait around for the small talk, you would never get to much else of some of the short termers before their departures.  She also said that a relationship is built on mutual dependency.  In other words, for there to exist a strong relationship, both people have to need each other.  It is not hard for me to identify my needs.  I suppose that is quite selfish, but real.  I have no idea what I can offer in return, let alone what I may offer.  On one hand, this seemed like a foreign concept, but on the other, I can easily identify why many of my relationships have suffered - because I felt as if I was taking advantage of the relationship and getting so much out of it without being able to offer something in return.  To protect myself from being too greedy or needy, I inserted the distance, and the relationship often crumbled as a result.  Other than being an intriguing thought, it does motivate me to seek some guidelines for such interactions, friendships and relationships.  I would be more than happy to oblige if I knew what I could offer.

 

Part of the lack of writing has also been too much fun!  There were 5 of us STAs (Short Term Associates or "the short termers" ie, the folks that are here for 1month to 1 year, but are not full-time missionaries) here for the past 5-6 weeks, and we have dinner together 2-4 nights a week.  I made tortillas from scratch for a Mexican type meal - using what was available.  I had a can of kidney beans and canned corn mixed with some taco seasoning and onions, homemade salsa (with the assistance of a package of salsa seasoning, and some cabbage lightly grilled and sautéed in onions with the juice from the corn to be the lettuce substitute.  Our lone male stopped by, and seeing the menu offered to bring his meat over to be made into hamburger, and then seasoned for the occasion.  The other part of these get-togethers, has been to share our stories, and what brought us to Niger.  I love hearing other's stories.  It helps you really get to see the nitty-gritty moments that have defined each, and what each person really values.  I love them up until the time it is my turn.  Then I would rather cook dinner, change the subject or be on-call in an attempt to avert, postpone or somehow delay the inevitable.  In reality, I was allowed the prized spot of last to go, and Lisa was, in fact, on call.  My only real incentive for a timely disclosure was the fear that more people would be coming shortly, and it would be better to share with people I have come to know and appreciate, than in front of any new audience.  It wasn't that I didn't have time to fret or ponder or prepare… I did.  The five talks spanned over the course of two weekends, and a few days in between...they were all impressive and remarkable.  5 generations of missionaries in one family, a desire to be a missionary in all of the others, a beaming with the telling of the story, deep hurts and life transformations.  It is amazing how humans, with the right perspective, can turn tragedy into blessings.

 

My procrastination led to the night before I was sure it would be my turn.  I spent hours in preparation.  I wrote out an outline, then even used the voice recorder on my phone to talk through it out loud.  Despite my preparation, I opted for a notes free approach, but didn't have the confidence for anything but momentary glimpses of eye contact.  When all was said and done, there were polite thank yous, and I was still alive. 

 

Anyway...enough about me, and more about the amazing patients!! 

 

There was one gentleman in his 30s who came in.  There is something memorable and haunting in some of the faces, and he fit into that category.  He was very thin, and walked as a man 3 times his age; barely able to straighten himself up to walk to the exam chair in front of my desk.  He complained of abdominal pain and a mass in his belly.  From looking at his belly, you could see that his liver extended nearly down to his pelvis, and it was hard and indurated.  He was wasted and gaunt.  I invited him back to the ultrasound exam are to confirm it was all liver, and it was.  The surgeon's had seen him three months prior and had called it a hepatoma, but it had doubled in size during that time.  I sent him for a chest X-Ray after not being able to hear breath sounds on the right side.  The breath sounds were absent as the air exchange capacity had been filled with fluid, leaving his lung space on that side to about 1/8th of what it should have been.  Despite that, his breathing was not too labored.  I offered to stick a needle in it.  It would be hard to miss!  The other reason of taking off some fluid was for diagnosis - perhaps it was from TB and he could respond to treatment.  After pulling off 1200 ml of straw colored fluid 50-60 mls at a time, I had a deep respect for this man.  He had hope for a different answer than he had been give before, he had a quiet strong way about him, and he was patient as I pulled off syringe after syringe of fluid.  After my endeavor, I listened to his breathing and was thrilled with the return of sound where it had once been absent.  He was breathing and feeling better!  (And all of this without anesthesia, and no repeat chest X-Ray could be done because of time or cost.)  I asked him to come back the next day to discuss the results of the fluid.  He found me in the under 5 clinic, where he looked a bit out of place with all the women and children, but he had claimed a space in my heart, and I fit him in amongst the children.  The results were negative for TB, which should be reassuring, but it meant that this was cancer, and that there was nothing at this hospital or in this country, or arguably given the stage, at any hospital in any country.  I listened to his breath sounds, and was disheartened by the silence.  Overnight, likely all of the fluid I had pulled off had reaccumulated.  What now could I offer this man?  I desperately wanted to do something more than I could.  I offered him a chance to come back and speak with an evangelist on a day of his choosing.  My local interpreter versed more in the local customs than that of the missionaries asked me, what will this do for him?  I wished I had a better answer.  One that I could say out loud, and one that he would be willing to translate.  I admitted there was little we could offer medically.  We could give him something for pain (but we have no narcotics) and could potentially try to drain more fluid off his lung, but it would only re-accumulate by the next day.  The evangelists could talk with him about life, and death, and provide support.  Perhaps this man had dreams that he wanted to share or delve into deeper…

 

It was a day of needles!

 

Earlier in the afternoon a boy came in with a swollen and tender thigh after receiving quinine injection there to treat malaria.  I stuck a needle in and drew out a syringe full of frank puss.  I delivered patient and pus to the surgeons, and he was offered surgery the next day.

 

There was another cute little boy who came to see me.  He had been bitten by a dog, and the story was suspicious for rabies.  The dog had also bitten another child, who was somehow related to the first.  The dog was acting weird, foaming at the mouth, and also bit some goats.  We don't have anti-venom, but treatment with a tetanus vaccine and the rabies vaccine are worth trying, despite the cost (the cost of the vaccines for today, was about $100.00 USD.  The annual per capita income in this country is only $300!  There is a series of vaccinations, and I'm not sure if the fee was for all of them, or if it was for just the one.)  Part of the goal of the shot is to get it to activate as many lymph nodes as possible for best mounting of the immune response, and as a result, the shot is divided up into 8 intradermal injections - 2 each over the upper arm, 2 each on the lower abdomen, 2 each on the thighs, and 2 each on the upper back.  Plus the tetanus vaccines, that is a lot of shots I had to give those kids - and that is after cleansing the bites with soap and water for 5 minutes, and cleaning with iodine.  I knew the tetanus would be the worst, and to save the trust of the kids for as long as possible, I save it for last.

 

I had a 14 year old girl who came in for malaria.  She needed a blood transfusion.  Her lungs were filled with wheezes, but she had no history of asthma.  (Some have said that asthma is very rare in the tropics, and more of a disease of industrialized countries.  Others have disagreed, pointing to the immense amount of dust, allergens and living conditions. )  Tropical diseases can present with wheeze, but I treated her for asthma first (and the malaria and severe anemia.)  I don't know if I mentioned this before, but only folks with severe anemia get transfused.  If your hemoglobin is greater than 5, don't even think about it!  (Normal for a male is 13-16, and for a female 12-14, more or less.)  Anyway, the wheezes were worse the next day, and instead of the pill for of albuterol, I gave her regular turns at the nebulized albuterol.  The following day the lungs were markedly cleared, but there was a noise over her heart that sounded like a machine.  I initially called it a murmur, but was later convinced that it was, without a doubt, the worst pericardial effusion I have ever heard!  The sound was her heart, rubbing against blood in the sac that was supposed to provide silent lubrication.  She also had a bit of puff to her eyes, and she was spilling massive amounts of protein.  The steroids I had started on admission to clear her lungs, should help her kidneys, too.  When she wasn't getting better to my expectations, I rechecked, and her blood count had dropped from a hematocrit of 14 (hemoglobin of about 4.7) to 9 (a hemoglobin of 3), I requested she get more blood.  Ocham's razor is a principle in medicine, if not other things, that suggests that most symptoms can be summed up by one diagnosis.  Africa has never heard of Ocham.  She has a parasite - malaria, causing anemia.  She also has loss of blood into her pericardial sac, exacerbating the blood loss, and preventing the normal function of the heart.  Her kidneys are injured enough to be spilling protein, causing the swelling in her face and feet.  On the differential to link the kidneys and the heart, probably more susceptible due to malaria and aneamia, are TB (which is always in the differential), post-strep throat infection affecting the kidneys, viral infection, rhematologic infection - lupus, etc.  We don't have tests to differentiate.  We can treat, and watch, wait and pray.

 

An even more impressively swollen child came in, and it wasn't limited to her face and feet.  Her face looked like it hurt it was so swollen, and her prepubescent seven year old chest was flat as can be despite a belly greater than that of a pregnancy 40 weeks in gestation.  I desperately wanted to stick a needle in and drain off as much as I could.  But, at only 7, would she permit me or understand that I was trying to help, while holding still enough that I could, without anesthesia, introduce a needle into her belly, and take the time to draw off liter after liter of fluid so that she could sit up and breathe better.  She was so young and was in great respiratory distress, although she was stoic through it all.  Any hole I poked in her would continue leaking for some time to come.  We opted to admit her for medical management - a lot of diuretics to try to get her to pee the fluid off her body.  After seeing how she could barely move her now bloated to 60 kg/120 lb body, I thought it would be generous to offer a foley - a catheter to drain the bladder so that she didn't have to get up each time.  She was diffusely swollen, even down there.  A day later, she seemed to breathe a little bit better despite lying down flat, but her belly was just as big, and her thighs were leaking fluid from the sites she had received the malaria injections.  (Oral pills wouldn't be well absorbed because her intestines would be just as swollen as the rest of her body; and IV quinine causes hypoglycemia at rates greater than our ability to check blood sugars.)

 

Another beautiful girl came in for evaluation of a rash.  I saw that note before I saw the child.  I would have said that someone tried to burn her face off.  Starting a centimeter below the hair line, and going down to the mid cheek.  There were a few other spots, that appeared as blisters that had lost their tops and dried up on her arms and legs, but on her face, they had coalesced and her face was down to raw, red tissue.  There was nothing to debride.  There had been no burn.  The rash started one week before, but she was eating well, and it didn't seem to bother her too much.  After no resolution with some kind of red pain ?medicine from a neighboring village, they came to us.  I was concerned about scarring, and being able to keep her eyes open.  An optometrist used an instrument to open her eyes, and the whites were still white - completely unaffected by what was going on on the skin surface!  I covered her with antibiotics for her face and pneumonia, gave two different antibiotics to protect the eyes, and ordered wound care.  Her face was raw and red, but somehow looked better the next day, and she was still happy, eating and playful!  I consulted both of my medical mentors.  I had thought perhaps it was the ominous beetle bug that is running rampant here.  If it lands on you, you get a huge blister.  Wherever that liquid touches, also turns to blister.  The mother denied it, and one of the doctors said a mom would know if a bug fell on the face of her 9 month old.  With as many bugs as are here, I would be surprised!  The other differential was bullous impetigo.  There were no visible bullae, but they are fragile and could pop before we could see them.  The other doctor agreed that it could be the blister beetle.  As before, diagnosis matters less than treatment, and she was getting better!  The other suggestion to add to her management, to prevent scarring, was aloe.  I cut off a large frawn from right outside my house, and sent it up to her with Lisa.  The mom was very appreciative.  Anything...if it can save this beautiful girl's face from a huge scar across her forehead and cheeks!

 

I love storms.  I love storms at the Oregon Coast.  I love the storms that refresh the air like a shower cleans and refreshes.  I like storms that leave the air cooled.  Storms in WV and in the Caribbean often times left the air hot and muggy.  In Oregon, and in Africa,  the storms cool.  The sky seems to crack open with light, the rains get serious an down pour.  Nothing is left to guess.  You will be wet.  The sounds of the storm are so loud.  The thunder piercing, and then rolling, the rain hitting the tin roofs, and hitting off the dry ground. It sounds more like the conjoined effort of a faucet pouring than an individual drip drip.  The winds blow through the screens, the bars and the upturned glass.  The curtains dance with a refreshed energy too.  Occasionally there is a puddle in the house; that makes one dust free clean spot on the cement floor.  Walking is tricky.  The dust and dirt turn to a thick mud, that oozes over flip-flops, and down between the toes.  Sometimes the mud threatens to claim the flip-flops and the best alternative, and with the same end result, only quicker speed, is to take them off and walk through the mud: same amount of squishing, same color feet when arriving at your destination.  The only question in a medical mind may be injury - glass, rocks, parasites.  I love the silhouette of trees as the lightning offers but glimpse of light.  I love storms. 

 

I was told today, based on my troubles with dehydration, Africa may not be the place for me.  It was slightly dis-settling.  I am not one to cross off options only because someone has suggested so.  I would more likely consider increased hydration, and decreased weight as better solutions.  But there was a sting to it, and it provoked thought.

9/11/12


To day was day two back at work.  It was nice to get back at it again, after so long away.

 

My first day back I was also on call!  Which is a long way to start a day.  I rounded on a few of Lisa's patients in the morning, and then had a small rest before late morning, and again before afternoon clinic.  I was back in the under 5 year old clinic, PMI, and admitted patient after patient.  Definitely more than I sent home!  But, that is the way the system is designed.  The first stop is to gather pertinent information including weight and temperature, as nearly every medication is based on weight in kids, and so many kids with malaria have fever!  Then, two other well trained guys (I'm not sure of their title, but perhaps they are "screeners" see the patients.)  The recognize and can treatment many common complaints according to the protocol.  The ones that need admission, or the derm cases, or the complicated cases get a little note that says, "see dr."  And then they become the admission, or the baffling derm case or the next severely malnourished kid, or the nephrotic syndrome...

 

For the first time, I had a patient I walked up to the wards to try to hasten the process.  I listened to a faint heart beat in the clinic, and even fainter heartbeat over in the hospital, and the third time I listened, silence.  There was no wailing.  Tears and strain were obvious on mom's face, dad made a phone call and they picked up their child, slung him on mom's back, and they were out the door.  The child had severe anemia from malaria, and the conjunctiva were the whitest I'd yet seen.  Even with a transfusion stat, I'm not sure it would have been enough.  As it was, nothing was enough.  We were too late.

 

There were some borderline sick kids I sent to get labs before making a final determination on whether or not they needed to be admitted (mostly based on whether or not they would need a blood transfusion.)  After the lab closed, they were all sent back to clinic.  Most of those needed admission, just to get the labs drawn and the blood donation and transfusion process started.

 

While we still had probably 30 kids to see in clinic, I was sent up to the ER to handle the emergencies, since I was on call.  I admitted patient after patient after patient.  At 9:30, the coast was finally clear, and I made my way home to gather my laundry off the line, and find something to eat!  Good think I had practiced not eating for so most of the past two weeks!  (Joking, kind of…)

 

Throughout the night, about every 2 hours, I had another phone call.  One was a 60 year old with hematemesis (vomiting blood).  I questioned whether or not it was hemoptysis (spitting blood) because I only ever saw her spitting, and no blood.  After asking her to breathe deeply to listen to her lungs, the vomiting blood began, and within a few minutes she had produced about  500 ml of bright red blood.  I wrote for a hematocrit, but that wouldn't be done until morning.  There are no IV H2 or PPIs, and not even the oral meds would be available till the morning when the pharmacy opened.  I couldn't give her blood, or a PPI drip, or octreotide or vasopressin.  I could give her IV fluids, keep her NPO, and try to control her vomiting and cough with metoclopramide and phenergan.  When I checked on her this morning, she was resting, and had no further vomiting.  Part of the difficulty is knowing the diagnosis and source.  Was it a ulcer that eroded a blood vessel, a pulmonary process, cancer?  We may never know.  100% of the population here has H. pylori by the age of 5, likely by the age of 2.  It is a bacteria that protects itself from the acidity of the stomach with a clever lining, and goes about its business of eroding through the stomach wall, sometimes into blood vessels that lay beyond.  Most likely this was the source.  We treat these patients who are bleeding for H. pylori.  The treatment with four medications is too costly to treat everyone who has H. pylori present (which is everyone) and would need to be repeated frequently.

 

After that urgent call I wasn't even able to fall asleep before the next came in - a baby with pneumonia.  The baby was using every muscle possible to help get air in, and the lungs sounded horrible.  After covering the bases with antibiotics and malaria treatment, and increasing the oxygen by nasal cannula to 5 L/minute, I knew I had done what I could for the night.  The baby was working way to hard, but was holding his own.   This  morning, the oxygen requirements were down minimally, but still tremendous effort was being exerted just to breathe.  This afternoon, I went by and the oxygen was at 2.5 Liters.  I should not have taken that as a reassuring sign and should have rechecked the saturation.  The next time I came by, the bed was empty and the chart was in the pile of death certificates to sign.

Sunday, September 9, 2012

I'm back! 9/9/12


I last wrote on a Tuesday, and that was well over a week ago.  Sorry loyal readers!  I have a lot more to say when I can talk about other's illnesses instead of my own!

 

I should have tried to write something, because my memory of the last week is not stellar; it all seems a blur.  I'll attempt to recount some of the events… 

 

Last week Monday was a long, hard day in clinic, due to a cold and a whole ton of very sick patients.  Tuesday I rounded on a few, ran home for a short break (and because I was going to be sick again), and got a phone call saying, my patients were being taken care of, stay home and get well.  (I reread my last entry to know that all was true, from here on out I'm a bit fuzzy on the details…) 

 

I felt much better by Wednesday and was able to round (although on very few patients since I hadn't admitted any the day before.  I was able to rest for two hours between rounds and clinic, and then another two hours between morning and afternoon clinics.  The patient load was much lighter!  I was about to see the last patient, and we would be finished by about 5:15, instead of the typical 6 pm.  I then had that horrible sense I was going to be sick again.  I went to the back of the clinic room, where there was a sink, and was able to get rid of that panicked feeling of impending emesis.  The relief must not have yet cleared my face because Lisa walked in at about the same time, and sent me home.  She offered to see the last patient who had already patiently waited all day.  My interpreter walked me home (and wouldn't accept no for an answer) and then let me know that I have to be honest with him, because we are a team now! 

 

Impending emesis became actualized, and was present after anything I put in my mouth.  I drank Gatorade, water and  SRO (also known as ORS or oral rehydration salts) a horrible salty liter of fluid that has balanced salt and sugar to that of the body to be optimally reabsorbed and to replenish lost electrolytes.  I ate an apple here, a piece of toast there, some ramen at times.  It all came back.  Although terribly thirsty I had to limit myself to one or two sips at a time to try to trick my system into keeping it down.  Sometimes it worked, sometimes it didn't.  So the pattern continued for the rest of the week.  In general, most of the time I felt relatively well, but would feel miserable and exhausted for a short period of time after each episode of emesis.  I took cough medicine, Tums and Zofran, to no avail.

 

I was feeling a little weak but hadn't had any emesis overnight, so on Sunday morning I went up to the hospital.  I had traded call days to have an extra day of rest, and so although I really had no patients at this point, I could see Lisa's, admit some of my own, and then be ready to go on Monday!  I got up to the entrance about the same time Dr. KL arrived and he asked me, what at the time I thought was an unfair question.  He asked me if I had thrown up in the last 24 hours.  The answer to that was yes, but let's look at the last 12 hours, that was great!  Perhaps my sites were too short, or he recognized something that I didn't.  When my answer was yes, he sent me home, again. 

 

I was pretty tired by the time I got home again, and the hospital is not far!  When he finished with rounds he came by again, and finding a blank lab order form on my kitchen table, recommended I get some labs drawn.  I got some SRO for the road, and walked back up toward the hospital.  Labs were drawn without a glitch, and called to Dr. KL at some point later.  Creatinine 0.9 [0.6-1.2], sodium 149 [135-145], potassium 5.2 [3.5-5].  (My potassium hadn't been > 3.5 for most of the past year, but for other reasons!)  So, the labs looked reasonable.  My creatinine is usually 0.6, so it had bumped a little, but in general, everything was relatively close to normal and could be explained by being a little dehydrated.

 

Lisa came over at one point, enjoying her first day off since arrival, and asked if I wanted her to bring a book over and read here for a while, just to be here.  I'm not sure why I said yes, and I don't know that I normally would have, but she was here.  I don't remember any deep conversations but just kept resting knowing she was nearby. 

 

The biggest change about Sunday was pain.  Throughout the whole week prior, I had never had any pain.  No headaches, no belly pain, no hunger pain, nothing.  Sunday, my belly felt like it was going to explode.  I couldn't identify it as anything specific, but as it was suprapubic my differential included my uterus or my bladder.  My bladder was empty and I hadn't been making urine again, so it wasn't that it was too distended or anything.  And, thankfully I can't ever recall having my uterus itself cause me any pain or discomfort.  I have a brilliant friend who once admitted that she was having an "uter-ache."  I understood the pain she was describing, and thought, what an insightful and clever term!  Regardless, there was a constant pain, exacerbated by movement, and unable to be relieved.

 

By Sunday afternoon, my bedroom was transformed into a hospital room.  An IV was started on the first try, after much searching and praying!  I can be a hard stick when dehydrated!  (I even remember once getting stuck in the jugular, but that was years ago!)  It took two liters before I was able to urinate again, and before I could appreciate that I again had visitors. 

 

I had been prayed for at church, which for the folks on the compound is on Sunday nights.  Up until that time many people didn't know I was sick - the doctor's are uusally so busy, you don't expect to see them on a daily basis!   I remember some faces, but mostly I remember that all the ladies were wearing blue! 

 

Laughter really is good medicine, and finding that Lisa had left her book (The No. 1 Ladies' Detective Agency) earlier in the day, it was commandeered and read out loud to me.   People stayed with me for a couple hours at a time, and one brought a cot, and camped in my room for the night.  When I was able to safely ambulate to the bathroom on my own and carry my fluids with me, I was allowed some time alone. 

 

The IV fluids overnight allowed me to urinate twice, which for the liters going in admittedly isn't much, but it was more than the few days prior!   I had had so much vomiting I got dehydrated, and then after 4 and a half liters of fluids (I'm sure it would have been 6 or 7, but my IV infiltrated, and the back of my hand became very puffy and swollen, so I was off the hook, and line!  Hehe.  Get it?  :)  ), instead of doing something productive like continuing to make urine, mostly it was just all horrible amounts of diarrhea.  After two days of Cipro and after a couple Imodium, I felt so much better, and hoped to return to work on Wednesday! 

 

The funny thing about making urine, is that then you have to go to the bathroom, and sometimes that just takes time.  Not until after getting all those fluids and drinking liters of oral rehydration did I really realize how little urine I had been making.  

 

I really thought that in the face of illness, I would be strong and handle things well, but all that went out the door after the first week.  As I mentioned before, I never had hunger pain, even though I ate almost nothing.  I never really had any pain until Sunday, and that was when I had abdominal pain like nothing I'd ever felt.  It literally hurt to move.  By that point I wasn't peeing, again, so at least that was a blessing not to have to move (before I got the IV)!  Then, after all the IVF, instead of urine, as I said before, it was all diarrhea.  Which also was associated with some belly pain, but better than the day before.  After about 12 such rendezvous with the baÑo for the aforementioned, I was quite discouraged.  I cried. 

 

I don't cry.  I thought I hadn't cried for probably 10 years since my grandmother died!  (After thinking about this more closely, I cried on the flight on the way back from Kenya.  (I think Katy was sleeping.)  I was frustrated that the one thing I had hoped to accomplish while in Kenya, I had failed to do, and I felt like I had wasted an incredible opportunity.  Don't get me wrong, it was a great introduction to medicine in Africa, it was great for providing me with concrete examples of why I was still interested in the International Fellowship, and it gave me a better perspective and helped revive myself in multiple ways.) 

 

Anyway, I was so frustrated.  When I was asked why, the obvious things that came to mind were: I came here to work and learn medicine in Africa, not stay in my bed and be a patient; I am a very private person and African mission society is a very loving, connected, community endeavor; and possibly the tip of the ice berg, was that I was spending so much time in the bathroom, and it was much hotter than my room as there was no fan.  I searched for a plug-in, in case I did need to just camp out in the bathroom for a while, and I couldn't find one.  I think that was the culminating, push over the proverbial hump, tears welling up and cascading out, straw that broke the camel's back.

 

 So...strong...not so much.  A complete dependence on God?  That would have been nice, but that hasn't been part of our interaction up until this point.  I have really struggled with having a "relationship," trusting and loving Him, and being loved by Him. 

 

 Lisa went on a walk at one point, and came back and said, you need to ask God what this was all about; there is something God is trying to teach you through this...  I think my lesson was that I do need to have complete dependence on God.  That I really do have to let go of thinking I am doing the right things for myself and let Him take care of me.  It was against everything I have ever done to have people walking in and spending time with me (when I'm well, fine, but when I am leaking nastiness from every orifice...eck.)  Until I was strong enough to walk to the bathroom myself, someone was with me 'round the clock!  I knew I had gotten into trouble by doing my own thing, and not that I wasn't going to participate in my own care, I vowed to do what I was told for 48 hours.  I drank what I was told, ate what I was told, and I got better.  If these guys are giving me SRO, what better gifts would a loving Father give me?!?  (I still can't categorize SRO appropriately.  On one hand the taste would put it in the stone, snake, scorpion category, whereas the obvious benefits I got from it put it in the bread, fish, egg category!  It was made with love, kool-aid, and sugar in an attempt to mask the salt, and that helped tremendously!)

 

The time has passed and I have felt better daily. 

 

When I was strong enough to hold a book, I would read.  I finished Evidence Not Seen,  Surgeon on Safari, No 1 Ladies' Detective Agency and Sword and Scalpel (and I am not a fast reader!)  Evidence I've mentioned before, Surgeon on Safari was about an orthopedic surgeon who took his 9 kids to Kenya for a year long, short term mission trip, Sword and the Scalpel was about Bob Foster in Zambia and Angola, and the Detective Agency was set in Botswana.  Each book was about Africa or Missions, and I saw over and over in the missionary books, how often these folks were in prayer, how deep their faith was in God, especially when they were in circumstances beyond their abilities, and how they could see God through suffering. 

 

Wednesday I felt so well I started to unpack my trunks!  (I know, how many layers of insight can I read into that one!)  On Thursday I was told I still couldn't work, but that I could walk around the compound, with an emphasis on the fact that it was in the direction opposite the hospital. I walked, but I was quite dizzy again and back for another liter of SRO.  On Friday, I got added instruction, that not only was I not going to go back to work till Monday, and not only was I supposed to walk around the compound, but talk to his wife!  They live on the far end of the compound, and although I had made two full circuits the day before, I had never stopped in to say, Hi!. 

 

So, Friday I stopped in, and hours later emerged.  I had one of the most enjoyable conversations I've ever had and read a children's book called, Monkey Crosses the Equator.  The monkey is at the equator, but doesn't feel any different when he swings from a tree in the Northern Hemisphere to the Southern Hemisphere.  The moral of the story is that you may not see a difference right away, but, "the further you go, the more you will know where you are, and where you are going, and the more you will feel it."  I also got a book of a few bible studies that I am excited to work through.

 

This weekend I've been trying to eat more, walking more, resting and getting my strength up.  Tomorrow, I am excited to go back to work, and be on call!  It is kinda like having a first day again, but without the stress or anxiety of the unknown! 

 

Thanks for your concern and prayers.  It was a very long, hard road for a while there, but I am so thankful for the love and support of my neighbors - strangers who have become family.  Despite the love and all the lessons learned, I am so ready to be a functioning member of this community again!